Suddenly I panicked! My eyes begin to blackout my reasoning is just not effective; I am completely disoriented, tasteless and senseless. Fear entangle all my senses and makes me want to retreat and not push on, I am tired of pushing. I’ve been fearless for such a long time and now I’m scare shitless of everything. Even waking up or going to sleep. Is this when I go shit nuts praying to God for a light? Is this when I cry myself to sleep every night? Is this when I don’t feel like waking up everyday? I miss everything in my life yet I left it all behind. Will I get through this and achieve my goals or will I just provoke my demise and be a bummer maybe that is what I am most afraid of. Over-reacting is just one of the few signs of me being burnt out. I have only one addiction but I am looking for many more, maybe to numb myself.
Confusion, fear is just another part of life, but indeed fear is failure. These are not my last words. But I am scare and maybe provoking my demise. I am just left bewildered and confused it sucks, being incapable of thinking with clarity or even acting intelligently
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